Did you decide? Hard, isn’t it? Personally I don’t like to be a liar, unless we are talking about shoes or bag purchases that have been hidden in my closet for the last few weeks so when my husband says “are these new?” , I can say with honesty, that no they are not. Is that a lie? no, of course not!!New only applies to that days purchase, maybe a day ago!! ha ha but I digress.
So addict then?? This was very very difficult for me to grasp. The idea was put in my head by Allen Carr. He is a genius that man.
So I had me old mate Allen Carr’s book, now the funny thing about this book, is that it is brain washing and its incredibly boring at times but he knew his stuff. It took me 4 goes to finish it because like he said when you finish the book, you will stop. Now the first 3 times, I thought ‘whatever’ but as I got nearer to the end, I couldn’t finish itas I was too frightened to stop and I wasn’t ready either, looking back now. He was so right but I found it wasn’t quite enough as I did not have enough confidence in myself to stop which is why I also employed other methods. Allen though makes you see that you are an addict, not that it is an excuse, but you are addicted and I think that is most of the problem with smoking, is that it is so addictive yet smokers are not put in the same ‘addiction’ box as other addicts, like i was saying yesterday.
But like I said yesterday, you need to admit to yourself that is what you are. To me, I wasn’t an addict, that was dirty heroin junkies scabbing in the bins or smelly alchies karked out on the grass in the park!! Or dirty pervy old wino’s or coked up kids………..ehhhhhhhh, no way, I wasn’t like that. But I was. I may not have been smelly and flaked out in the park but I was smelly to those who did not smoke and even though I was not on the nod from junk, I had as much willpower to say no to a smoke as they did for a fix. So once I could admit to myself, thats what I was, I think that was when I was on my way. Now I am not saying you need to stand up and say “my name is ……… and I am an addict………….nope, but you know I looked for outside smoking support groups but there was nothing apart from joining groups at a horrendous cost.
Speaking of horrendousness- I must tell you about one of my early methods in stopping smoking………I went and did this stop smoking through my work who at the time was the National Bank, now they paid for all their staff that wanted to stop to go on a stop smoking course. I think I was about 20, so it was about 2o years ago. Anyhow I went and on the first night the lady running it said “, do you feel like a smoke” and I (and everyone else too I bet) thought ‘sure do’ and she said, well have one…….Fantastic I thought………then when we were getting near the end of that smoke, she said, well for you people that are smoking(and it was all of us), have another smoke, and light it from the butt of your old one and really drag on that smoke……….and after that have another one and so on until you felt so ill, you couldn’t face another cigarette. The idea was you could smoke when you wanted but when you did you had to smoke 2-3 and guts drag them to make yourself feel ill. You would then associate cigarettes with feeling ill and it would over time lessen the cravings and the psychological need for cigarettes.
Hmmmm but did it work?
You know what I am going to say, don’t you?
tomorrow, tomorrow………..there’s always tomorrow…..
To be continued……