Just did my first run in 4-5 months.
Fingers toes and all other bits crossed that the time is ok.
It is a bit of test the waters etc so here hoping!
Am allowed to do 3-4 x 3km run/walks per week for the next fortnight.
To see how it goes.
The DESIRE to run hard out is STRONG!!
Seriously, I love running, we all love running but running really is/was my saviour.
These past four five months have been bloody shite…
I had a lot of other crap go wrong as well as having no running and had no running to fall back on to help me.
I had a reoccurrence of the worst cycle of depression for some years.
I thought I would need to take medication.
But this episode has taught me to use and have other resources.
I have always run as a way to dealing with depression.
Running is my medication.
Didn’t want to deal with things? Run!
Sad ? Run!
When running was taken away, it made me realise, I had no other ‘tools’ in my resource box to deal with depression.
Well I did but I just couldn’t pull it together to use them:(
Weights, swimming, cycling just didn’t give me that serotonin boost I badly needed.
It really is like someone has taken away the sun.
Cliche as it sounds.
I started doing weights, rowing and cycling about 4 weeks ago after 3 months of grumbling and feeling sorry for myself.
It started my climb back.
It doesn’t give me the same boost BUT it helped me feel better physically & mentally.
Things started to turn round about 4-5 weeks ago.
I felt a small shift.
It’s not all smooth sailing but I feel I can get there now.
Today, though, I feel I can do anything again!!
I can not describe the joy I felt in that run.
I was so happy, I wanted to cry!!
Pure pure joy!
RUN TONTO RUN!